Ok - so I went to the dr. the other day - reluctantly - knowing I was going to be berated for having my bloodsugar so high. Turns out she was very kind and said that if I am doing what I should be and it is still high - it's not my fault - it's hers for not being more aggressive with my meds. BIG relief and a reminder to buckle down a little more. After an EKG, chest Xray, 5 tubes of blood and a tetnus shot (that is still with me) I was good to go. We doubled my meds with the intention of rechecking and doubling them again in 6 weeks, giving my body time to adjust to the new dosages. She also told me that if I am dilligent with sit ups I can correct my hernia on my own or at least improve it. Also, that I should not have it worked on if I plan on having any more babies since the muscles will just need to separate again to make a cozy nest for a little peanut.
So, I was feeling okay about all those things, possibly even a little hopefull. Until she called today with the results of my bloodwork.
My fasting BG was still high, my triglycerides have come down exponentially leaving us finally able to test my cholesterol which was high. Not as high as I have seen Matts go, but I guess with diabetes it is a big concern. The crappy thing is that my liver function tests are still off - the enzymes are high and the ultrasound we did a couple months ago didn't show anything. SO, now I get have a CAT Scan on my liver and surrounding organs to look for growths, deposit, fatty tissue etc. I guess if all that comes back normal they'll just tell me I have Non Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease - which lumps right in there with the PCOS, Metabolic Syndrome, Diabetes etc. etc.
I guess it is no wonder that I am so tired and can't lose weight. I feel so discouraged. I have lost 5 pounds though - so I guess I can't really say that. I just want to feel better all the way around. So here is a poor poor pitifull me little pitty party.
Now I must be off to Enrichment to set up tables and other loverly things.
Please if there is anybody out there reading my poor pathetic posts feel free to comment, tell me to shut it, or what ever, would just be cool to know there is someone else out there. (break into song .......)
I think you are incredibly brave the way you are handling all of these medical problems, whiule still being a good mother.
ReplyDeleteYou need to take it easy on yourself, you are doing great, better than should be expected.
Just take some time to reflect on why you are here, and what you should be doing.