'tis the night of reminiscing ... and ahh the memories are poignant and sweet. 2 weeks overdue, amnio at an all time low, Dr's more interested in Good Friday and Easter than inducing a pathetic 1st time mom ... and then a measley 22 hours later my beautiful girl is sleeping at my side in a room lit only by the blue glow of a few hospital gadgets.
Silly Izzy seems to be as dramatic and sentimental as I. When she turned 4 - for the first few months she wouls periodically burst into tears and say "I miss 3!"
Today she has been anxious and worried about turning 5 - saying that she is nervous and worried. I guess she hasn't caught on to the fact that 1 day doesn't really make a difference - but, on the other hand - when you are young things do change a lot depending on your age - and, then I wonder how much do we emphasize "now that you are a big girl" kind of stuff....
So, anyway - we have the big birthday surprise in place - and only had a few attempts at sneak peaking before bed. The neighborhood girls are SO excited as is Alex. I can't wait to see Isabel's reaction to it all - I know that she will be crazy deliriously happy.
I have tried to write a letter to my girls every year on their birthdays - this year will be hard. Isabel is my amazingly talented and intelligent beautiful girl - I never cease to be amazed by her creativity or unusuall interests - but HOLY COW - the last year has been really hard as she is asserting her independence, desire to be the controlling, bossy, oldest daughter (hmm I never acted like that). I try not to let her attitude affect how I feel about her or how I treat her - but there are just times that I can not remember when she used to be so sweet. I pray that with love and dilligent nurturing this will pass as a stage.
The thing that you just can't comprehend before having children of your own - is the impact your emotions can play in your ability to parent. Before kids - it seemed so cut and dry: I will never have this many toys! I will do this, I will never do that, etc. Then you get in "that" situation and if you don't know what you are doing suddenly your 3 year old has the upper hand and you are left with your jaw dropped, drool running out the left corner of your mouth, while you hopelessly rack your brain for some worth while piece of knowledge that will get you out of you present condundrum.
Well, time marches on, and I must be off to hang the birthday door. Good bye 4 - beware all the birthday door - cross thru and return ye ne'er more! My baby is no baby anymore.
Keep your eyes out this week for pictures of the BIG SURPRISE - SCRAP & PLAY - and the Flower Power Party.
Silly Izzy seems to be as dramatic and sentimental as I. When she turned 4 - for the first few months she wouls periodically burst into tears and say "I miss 3!"
Today she has been anxious and worried about turning 5 - saying that she is nervous and worried. I guess she hasn't caught on to the fact that 1 day doesn't really make a difference - but, on the other hand - when you are young things do change a lot depending on your age - and, then I wonder how much do we emphasize "now that you are a big girl" kind of stuff....
So, anyway - we have the big birthday surprise in place - and only had a few attempts at sneak peaking before bed. The neighborhood girls are SO excited as is Alex. I can't wait to see Isabel's reaction to it all - I know that she will be crazy deliriously happy.
I have tried to write a letter to my girls every year on their birthdays - this year will be hard. Isabel is my amazingly talented and intelligent beautiful girl - I never cease to be amazed by her creativity or unusuall interests - but HOLY COW - the last year has been really hard as she is asserting her independence, desire to be the controlling, bossy, oldest daughter (hmm I never acted like that). I try not to let her attitude affect how I feel about her or how I treat her - but there are just times that I can not remember when she used to be so sweet. I pray that with love and dilligent nurturing this will pass as a stage.
The thing that you just can't comprehend before having children of your own - is the impact your emotions can play in your ability to parent. Before kids - it seemed so cut and dry: I will never have this many toys! I will do this, I will never do that, etc. Then you get in "that" situation and if you don't know what you are doing suddenly your 3 year old has the upper hand and you are left with your jaw dropped, drool running out the left corner of your mouth, while you hopelessly rack your brain for some worth while piece of knowledge that will get you out of you present condundrum.
Well, time marches on, and I must be off to hang the birthday door. Good bye 4 - beware all the birthday door - cross thru and return ye ne'er more! My baby is no baby anymore.Keep your eyes out this week for pictures of the BIG SURPRISE - SCRAP & PLAY - and the Flower Power Party.
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