I heard this song today called
I'm still a guy - by Brad Paisley
I think the Normal Becca would have been a little ticked
listening to it because sometimes "guy things"
just annoy me.
BUT
since my dear hubby has been climbing higher and higher
on the pedestal due to his
taking over the majority of the care of our home and children
his sweetness, sensitivity and conscientiousness
and down right
loving attitude...
I think that I am a little more appreciative of "Guy things"
and so, thought this song was pretty great!
I should give another sweetness award to my sweet girl Alex
YES I did say Alex
the one and same girl who turned the volume up on the tv when I burned my hand
because she didn't want to hear me scream!
This morning she came in to find me sitting and rolling on the birthing ball and
listening to my Hypno babies CD.
She asked what I was doing and if it felt good. I told her I was relaxing and trying to help my body to have a baby and that NO it did not feel good. I explained that it hurts but if it doesn't hurt the baby won't come out.
She very gently began to help me to roll the ball a little faster, then to bounce me on it. She would put her hands gently on my shoulders and use encouraging words.
When I would slow down she would remind me that "its good to hurt mom" OR if she heard them say RELAX or something else she understood she would ask me if I was remembering to Relax.
Evidently she remembers that we've been walking a lot for the same reason - so she suggested that I get up and walk around the ball 12 times and she would help me count.
The girls may not get the middle of the night going to stay with our friends or use our hospital emergency bags experience - which makes me sad. BUT, I have had a lot of fun with them through this pregnancy teaching and learning and talking together. I feel so lucky to receive so much love in return from my girls. AND for as much as my Dr's criticized me for saying that ONE reason we wanted another baby is because my girls wanted one - I am grateful that we made the decision to pursue a baby as a family and that we have all worked together through out this process.
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Now as we approach the inevitable arrival of our little one
- 13 days 'til my ACTUAL due date - 7 days or less 'til he really arrives -
I feel all those nervous feelings every mother to be encounters.
Do I have enough love to share with 1 more child?
What will happen to my other 2? Will I have time energy and love enough for them?
Will my baby of Maximum size be lovable?
Will my shallowness and vanity make me sad when I see how huge he is?
Will I even be allowed to hold him after having a c-section?
(He is estimated at 10 lbs today)
Are we really going to call him Max?
Or is it going to have to be "hey you" or "boy"?
Until we get to see his face for real we will just imagine an adorable normal size baby with
chubby cheeks and hope for all the best with all the rest - and for now enjoy a few pictures of my cutie girls before they fall out of the spot light AND in their last cute hairdo for a while!
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